Monday, September 9, 2013

Last name..

Do u remember ?
the first time that we meet each other.. its been a long time ago..
when i was like a little fat ass bastard.. troublemaker in the class.
and u were shining like a star..
basketball athlete, big man in the court, and people called u "the 1st rank"..
it was so funny when finally we chat and talk in the course..
even.. at the end of our course..
we became very close friends.. talk about each other secrets..
and finally u decided.. to make me as your guardian angel..
one thing u need to know..
i appreciate it.

All the time that has passed away..
Bring us more mature day by day..
when we enroll our senior high school..
life's getting more complicated..
u and your companion including your ex.
and me with my troublemaker kids that always... cause much trouble..
at that time..
i was just a shadow in your life..
our love story..
guess what? most people in our school will definitely know about our stupid love story.
but one thing u need to know..
i don't regret it.

Now we are 20's..
(u almost reach 20 this year.. haha..)
more mature hopefully..
life's getting busier..
you are so busy with your stuffs, so do i..
communications often end up with a fight..
it almost happen every time..
and one thing u need to know..
i thank to God for it..

U know.. i cant usually describe my feelings like this..
i also hate blogs by the way..
but somehow..
i just feel its our story.
so i can keep it by myself and my lovely laptop also in the internet world.
i just need somebody to share it..
but i'm gonna wait for the right time..
when my "2nd families" are not busy and available to talk about this..
i'm gonna tell them for sure..

Last thing.. last paragraph..
i'm not sure what we are now..
a couple ? a couple of fight?
close friends? friends?
or just two normal people with abnormal feelings..
i don't know..
and for now, i guess i don't even need to know..
i love you ? -- too mainstream..
i miss you ? -- too classic..
one last sentence.. that always make me feel that you are the one..
one last sentence.. that always encourage me when i was down..
when u say these words to me :

"Rayon.. i hope u are the one who gives your last name for me.. "